I hate this town and everyone in it. But apparently that’s a crime because my boyfriend is offended. As usual.
You ever want to understand depression just look at Wisconsin in winter
Can we all just talk about how much tattoos hurt for one moment
One time I wanted to be a music teacher and I was so excited to do it and I was like this is my passion I am gonna be the greatest music teacher ever because I want to be a wonderful teacher and create a safe place for kids during the say and do it through music because that’s what I was good at.
Anyway to audition for the college I wanted to go to, I needed to have my music teacher fill out a form commenting on my skills and stuff. And I was only in band at the time because I didn’t agree with the teaching methods of the choir teacher. She was consumed by favoritism and demanded respect but didn’t give the kids any because she just saw them as students to sing her music not people.
Then I found out my band teacher couldnt fill it out because I was auditioning for vocal music. So, after a summer of not being in choir and maturing and learning how to act like an adult, I went to this choir teacher and graciously asked her to fill it out for me so that I could audition for this school.
Essentially what happened in that office killed me.
She told me that while I had talent, I was a child with a bad attitude and poor leadership skills. She told me she refused to fill it out because I lacked training in my voice and didn’t work hard enough in class.
And yeah, you can read this and be like “Thats not even that bad. Why would this make you feel so upset?” But you know that way some people talk to you…the way they look at you and theyre saying things that arent so bad but that look in their eyes is just…cruel? She was looking at me like a foe she had finally defeated. An empire finally brought to its knees. She could see what she was doing to me.
I ran out of that office and cried in the bathroom before slowly wandering home. Because of that woman, I was unable to audition for that college. And I gave up my short-lived dream of being a music teacher. I will never inspire children with the sound of a piano pounding into the air. Because she made me believe I cant.
I cant do this
If only Elsa could have frozen time and saved her parents